Tired of being the one.

I'm tired of being the one you pick up when need needed and throw out when you're done.

I'm tired of not being able to say no.

I'm tired of staring at it and think....that's what how it used to be.

I'm tired of being left in the dark and find out 2 days later.

I'm tired of not knowing what's up and around.

I'm tired of feeling regret, compensating, only to find that I wasn't even needed to be there in the beginning.

I'm tired of seeing you change and be like them. There used be this personality, but it's not there anymore. You've become completely blended into and not how I used to know you.

One side of me thinks, great you're changing and coming out out of your hole, but another side of me wants you to stay the way you were.

Whatever. Things Change. But If Only Time Stayed Too.

Eh, today was really tiring, I felt like throwing up :[ I'm not even sick, I think it's a side effect of having this "emotion".

Anyways we did our kantan skit today. We memorized all our lines and I hope we got a good grade >.<

We put up posters afterschool. Man, was it tiring. We had to run up and down the hallways because our "stations" were so far away from each other. Jason was NOT focusing....ARGH to him. Carmen feel asleep on the bus though XDD



It's mother's day this sunday. Surprisingly my mom doesn't want me to get her anything but she wants me to visit my grandmother. WTF. I haven't talked to her in so long. But ever since she's been hospitalized my opinions for her have changed. I feel like crying when I see her. She's finally awaken from her old days. She's starting realize that we're part of the family too. I'm sure she too realizes that time is ending for her soon.

"I don't want, don't care and isn't going to admit my stubbornness
I'm scared of starting to cry uncontrollably
Love harmed both our freedom" ~ Angela Z.

~Anna Bananna