Just dance

haha Just Dance is stuck in my head x.x

Anyways, today was the typical day. Wendy wants to film a movie. But that's one of my goals for this year too, to do a film or video of some kind.

Lemme ask you guys a question ;]

Would you buy plain rice rolls with soysauce, a cookie, a fried chicken drumstick, and a drink with a fork and napkin for $5?



I have practice all week cept Tues. and Fri....Wow...my grades are slipping from this..

"Just dance." ~LGG

~Anna Bananna

mother's day

Mother's Day is supposed to be like super fun right? Well, I just found out my mom is going to eat dinner with her friends tonight. Wow. I was going to make her dinner but forget it.

I visited my grandmother today in the morning. She got so much more skinnier >.< BUT i found out that her favorite dim sum is ha gao :] I'm gonna try to make it for her next time ;]



Anyways, after that my dad drove me to Serramonte. YAY. BUT i didn't even get to shop, cause Jenny was all, "Let's go I'm bored." So ok, that's gone :/

I'm back home now, nothing to do. It's procrastination night so don't expect to see me anywhere online.

OH MA GAWD. Stupid people who can't get in sync with the program frustrate me. DO IT YOURSELF. >:[

~ Anna Bananna

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. Seriously I am. I admit, I'm stubborn. I'm simple and not complicated to know what is that is bothering you all the time. I really don't know you enough, nor can understand you enough.

I know you're not blind about it and you can see. But I'm oblivious to it. Once again, I'm too stubborn to understand. I guess I'm a cold selfish bitch, and NO. I'm not blaming this on you.

I guess I was born high up on this pedestal where I believed everything revolved around me but I would never dare admit it. I didn't and don't want to be the one in the movies that everyone hated. Truth be told, I'm scared to admit it. But I'm spoiled and conceited.

I know I'm not physically spoiled but emotionally. I know my limits when talking to my parents to avoid being hurt. Out of the 365 days per year there is not one day where I truly feel happy.

I guess being through so much crap can really open up your personality and provide you with a colorful volcabulary.

Here's another thing too, I get jealous. I'm not all that sweet, I have a darker side to me I don't dare show. That's probably want happened yesterday and I'm sorry about what I said.

I never think about the other side of the picture, I can't think before I act, and I definitely cannot put myself in someone elses' shoes. I'm sorry I hurt you so much when you're already down. I understand, but in ways I don't.

I always thought I was down in the dumps with me not having all these necessities and whatnot. But I guess clothes and external valuables can't cover up and make up for what and how you feel inside.

I know I'm just blabbering on at this point. and you're probably not getting half of what I'm saying. But there's no words to describe how I'm feeling right now. It's weird.

But the main point is, I KNOW it's not the first time I've done this to you. and you'd think I'd learn by now. The problem is I CAN'T LEARN.

Maybe next time, please just TELL ME what I'm doing wrong. Tell me how you feel about what I did. Then I can learn, then I can at least try to compensate for my doings. Just like I can't learn Bio w/o a textbook I can't learn exactly what I'm doing without help.

If you can tell me straight up, we can figure something out. But please, if you keep it bottled in, I'll never know. I might go on in life doing this to others. I might get hurt, but it's worth it in the long run. That's what friends are for? I wouldn't know. I don't even know the definition for it anymore, because it's much more than that at this point. I'm lost, getting way too high on my pedestal built by my behaviors. Help me change.

"The resonance of sadness
echos in the night.
I want to believe, someday
Someone will help me." ~MM

~Anna Bananna

Tired of being the one.

I'm tired of being the one you pick up when need needed and throw out when you're done.

I'm tired of not being able to say no.

I'm tired of staring at it and think....that's what how it used to be.

I'm tired of being left in the dark and find out 2 days later.

I'm tired of not knowing what's up and around.

I'm tired of feeling regret, compensating, only to find that I wasn't even needed to be there in the beginning.

I'm tired of seeing you change and be like them. There used be this personality, but it's not there anymore. You've become completely blended into and not how I used to know you.

One side of me thinks, great you're changing and coming out out of your hole, but another side of me wants you to stay the way you were.

Whatever. Things Change. But If Only Time Stayed Too.

Eh, today was really tiring, I felt like throwing up :[ I'm not even sick, I think it's a side effect of having this "emotion".

Anyways we did our kantan skit today. We memorized all our lines and I hope we got a good grade >.<

We put up posters afterschool. Man, was it tiring. We had to run up and down the hallways because our "stations" were so far away from each other. Jason was NOT focusing....ARGH to him. Carmen feel asleep on the bus though XDD



It's mother's day this sunday. Surprisingly my mom doesn't want me to get her anything but she wants me to visit my grandmother. WTF. I haven't talked to her in so long. But ever since she's been hospitalized my opinions for her have changed. I feel like crying when I see her. She's finally awaken from her old days. She's starting realize that we're part of the family too. I'm sure she too realizes that time is ending for her soon.

"I don't want, don't care and isn't going to admit my stubbornness
I'm scared of starting to cry uncontrollably
Love harmed both our freedom" ~ Angela Z.

~Anna Bananna

what an interesting day...

Aha. Today was hilarious <33

Ok, we had practice today....it was HELL. By the end of practice I was so tired, that I was willing to run a friggin mile.

Iris, Eva, and Jason are so sweet ;] They waited for me today haha 3 hours I believe!! I hope you guys weren't too bored :]

Jenny, Stephen, Iris, and me then went to Chinatown and got FISHABALLERS <3333 Of course that Yellow Store sold out so we went to Lolocup. Stephen ditched us to get his ha gow (shrimp dumblings ;]) and jook (pongee) WHO THE FRIG EATS PORRIGE ON THE STREETS??!!

Anyways we took the car back, Jenny, being the oldest one sat on the floor :] While the latter sat on the top. I'm pretty sure Iris was squished >.< SORRY!

Anyways I went to read some blogs that I follow and I'm sitting here thinking.

I am really spoiled with my life. Everyone around me has at least one problem rotating around them, while I'm here, every single day of my life, smiling at least once truly. I believe I'm taking advantage of all the people around me by taking their love and happiness without being able to relate with them at all.

I have a happy family, no pressure from family or friends, no expectations, no love problems (yet), no drama and I'm just so indifferent and unaware of the things rotating around me.

Would you call this being lucky or am I really that cold on the inside. I'm not deep at all.

~Anna Bananna

That fuckin hurt -.-

It's not what you think. XD (whatever it may be) MY EPILATOR CAME TODAY :] (thanks harmony <3)

Eeh, today was the average day. I had a lot of fun after school though XD UGHH. While I was walking to the bus stop with Harmony, Nancy, Stephen, and Iris....this mexican guy walks past us and says "You wanna suck my dick?" and I was just like "W.T.F? :[" BLAH. THAT was NOT the fun part. It was on the bus ride....haha.

Anyways. I have a shitload of crap for Caliz due tomorrow....I'm friggin screwed.

Wish me luck.

"Today too, I saw you smiling at her" - b.u.d

~ Anna Bananna

headacheee

Yesterday killed me. My goshers. i was so tired by the time I came home with an upset stomach that was sooooo worth it x]

But when I went home I just plopped and died on my bed -.- XD and I've been doing my homework till now haha.

Anyways yesterday was so much fun!!

First I had a shift at Jamba Juice haha I got there just in time x.x Stupid bus. The shift was SO boring and nobody was in line! I know, exaggeration but whatever! I guess if you want to shop without lines go in the morning haha. Let's just say it was fun standing there coming up with a rap for Jamba Juice x]

" Jamba Mamba donate to Wash-ah
Come to Westfield Mall this weekend
All you gotta say is Wash -ah
and it won't even cost ya!
-cept the drink-"

LAMEE -cough-



The Cameron House Carnival was fun :] I liked their nachos ;] Well techinically we didn't really GO to the carnival....but we went to the play!

The play was hilarious!! I think it was called "Aliminasian" or something like that. After the play we went to get fishballs -shot- They were soo good but the hot sauce gave me a sore throat -.- basically we went on a food eating spree in Chinatown.

1) Fishballs
2) Nachos
3) More fishballs and FAKE shark fin soup
4) Frozen yogurt

That gave me a tummy ache, but it was REALLY good. We went to the library too... Wendy convinced me to borrow the first season of Gossip Girl and watch it L.O.L She made me borrow 40 year Old Virgin too. We're gonna watch it at my place next weekend w/ Iris :]

I have a headache right now x.x Stupid Milktea :[

and GAHH. Caliz is crazy!! I have so much piled work from her, it's like SIX pages worth of stuff x.x Wish me luck :[

"Happy happy Sunday! Happy Sunday!" ~K K

~ Anna Bananna

I'M AWAKE

GAHH. I missed out on so many things last night -.- I blame the stupid couch. That couch has this magic that makes you sleepy within an hour, or maybe it was just the comforting TV....idk. Anyways, since I couldn't blog last night, I'll do it now, at 6:39 AM! I actually woke up myslef today haha.

Yesterday was AWESOME! I woke up by myself at 8:30 AM. OH YEAH. So me and Iris were riding the bus to downtown cause we were going to go shopping. BLAH. OMG. Stupid beaners (no racism applied ;]) there was a Latino male standing WAAY too close to comfort on the bus. >.< I could feel his happy spot on my butt and his stomach into my back UGHH. Scarred for life. I was late to 4th period...but eh, the teacher didn't even care.

Quickly's electricity went out. No surprise there... I mean THREE loud booming televisions, those machines, and just unnecessary lighting, but I mean whatever, at least you got drinks with no caps and tax included XD



I went home, only to get a call asking me where I was and that there WAS a DC meeting that involved cleaning the instrument room. Oh well. I went home, I'm there, no way in heck am I going back. BUT UGHH. I didn't get my report card :[ I'm pretty sure it's not a 4.0 cause of Pakar and I have As in everything cept Health (I DID NOT PLAGIARIZE T_T) so eh. I might blog again when I get home...depends what happens...OH CRAP. I forgot to upload the DC syllabus for Stephen and others.......oops. MY BAD.

UGHH. It's raining now. B.S.

~ Anna Bananna